nothing much | losingmyfriends's Blog

Ever since the first time i met you i felt this tingling feeling in my body, i felt that i would fly every time i see you…. i don’t now what has gotten into me… i never realized that my feeling of crushing on you grew stronger everyday. Because of your hobbies of teasing me, making me laugh, torturing me, laughing at me, telling me jokes, befriending me, caring for me, you’re always on my side, worrying about me, taking care of me….. all those things you have done for me but there is still one thing i’m not sure that you have done to me "love me!" …..you have done so many things for me but i don’t know how to repay yo… Should i thank you a billion times, should i take care of you and worry about you too… i don’t know or maybe i’m just waiting for you to tell me something i really want to hear from you ever since that day our lives connected, our destiny combined, our fate decided…..

So even if you like other girls, i don’t care, it may hurt me but i don’t care as long as i know that you’re still there to take care of me and i know i’ll take care of you too….. If you go, i’ll miss you, if you go out with a girl, surely i’ll be jealous but for everyone’s sake i won’t say anything cause they might say that i’m a spoiled brat who gets everything she wants…. I will just have to keep it a secret from everyone, specially from you…. whom i know will reject me when you find out that "I love you", and i know you will keep away from me and besides if tell you and you don’t accept it, it will just ruin our relationship as friends, and i tried really hard for you and me to become like that…..  but maybe when i grow up i’ll regret not telling you that i loved you cause you might tell me that you loved me way back when. It’s too late now and we can’t do anything about it anymore... *sigh* *grin* *cry*